This doesn't have anything to do with Fairies or Fantasy or Cinderella or the wonders of childhood and other Disney movies. I keep hearing some really kind of nasty comments that are directed to someone with a name just like mine and since I'm and have been the target it seems for someone it sure seems like they mean me. I'd like to say something to all of you that you have no proof of the things that made you angry except for what someone said I did. I mean you didn't ever hear me because I didn't do the things that you seem to think I did that you have repaid me for doing...and I'd like to repeat something in one of the movies that i had heard a long time ago. That no one can make a person feel less than they are without your permission and if you don't understand what that means you should ask. Like the statement I made to someone and whether she understood or not it sure made me do some thinking about just what it meant because "making fun of others is not really good" we get into the other sort of thing like we put others down at times or laugh about things because that seems to be what makes us feel good about ourselves and it's just the opposite sort of effect. I was the person that got asked that question along with several other things --things do hurt, but I'm not sure why except she heard that person talking about being in me and thinking about how she felt and she wanted to hurt her--just that she wasn't listening to all that was said I guess. Then other things done to me because she thought I was the one "making fun of her". I don't know if anyone ever looks at the blog or reads any of it, but
of all the things said and done---that are hurtful and really hateful that caused me to say something I shouldn't afterwards and then made to regret it because she has no problem getting back at whoever it is that she thinks did something to her and that's not easy to live with either. This has been one of the most difficult situations one could ever honestly find oneself in I think. They talk about "cream rising to the top" that's a lot like what they
talk about when a person finds oneself in a difficult situation often like someone saying"are you fat or are you pregnant" had I known anything about why she was asking me at the time instead of just thinking I knew--I'm not sure what I would have said--none of your business maybe because it wasn't-simple and to the point and
instead of saying what I did because I had had a weight problem ever since before high school when they did what they did and there were often hurts. NO ONE CAN MAKE YOU FEEL LESS OF A PERSON WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION. LIKE SOMEONE TALKS ABOUT SOMEONE THINKING "SHE'S BETTER THAN ME" AND THE RESULT IS AN ANGRY PERSON WHO THINKS THAT NO ONE IS BETTER THAN SHE IS(not sure if that is no one is or just someone here only she knows that for sure)AND SHE HAS SAID AND DONE SOME THINGS TO THAT PERSON THAT HAS REALLY CAUSED SOME REAL DAMAGE TO THAT PERSON AS WELL AS HER FAMILY.
Several years before my coming back to Baltimore and to all of this I learned more about some things that were knew in the field about communication and psychology and despite what I learned and that a lot of it
was good information I came to this and nothing seemed to help and Iunderstand part of the reason why.
Preconceived ideas, things that had gone on before and the time thing and in a way I think that it's kind of too bad for some that might have benefitted from the knowledge that would have made there lives better and maybe they would not have been so quick to do the things they did to us, Then tonight it was as if someone
started to say something and I was a little upset because she often talks about money as well as other things,
then she if anything seems to make things worse instead because it was my idea and thought it might be a good one.
As I finish this rather long blog I just want to say to her--NO ONE CAN MAKE YOU FEEL LESS OF A PERSON WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION AND THOSE WHO BELIEVE IN HATE AND THE MESSAGES THAT SHE LIKES APPARENTLY THAT --A FEW YEARS BACK--SOMEONE SAID THAT WE HAVE THE POWER WITHIN OURSELVES TO CONTROL HOW SOMETHING LIKE THAT MAKES US FEEL--IT IS A CHOICE AND WE CAN WIN OVER WHAT THEY WOULD HAVE US FEEL BY KNOWING THAT. i DIDN'T TELL THAT PERSON SHE WAS STUPID AND SOMETIMES WE ARE ALL OF US--BUT IT'S NOT GOOD TO SAY THAT TO OTHERS AND MAYBE NOT TO OURSELVES.